Lately we have been under a great deal of stress. A month ago we decided to put our house up for sale because we feared the market was declining too quickly and we didn't want to loose the equity in our home. We need the cash to start our new life in Canada.
A miracle of sorts ocurred. We found a young couple that wants to buy our home and is willing to wait until we are ready to leave for Canada next year. It's a win/win situation, but a scary chance to take. What if the market really crashes, what if they lose their jobs, what if, what if......I think I am driving Emilio crazy with my worries.
During this same exact time period a very serious medical problem happened to my Mom. She was diagnosed with breast cancer. Fortunately it was found early and it seems she will be just fine. I am so grateful for modern technology and early detection.
Tell every women you know to get mamograms every single year.
Emilio and I are very close to my family. We spend more time with them than anyone else in our lives. This medical scare made me completely aware that we will be far away and not be in the position to provide on hand comfort and support as we do now. I have never even lived outside of New Jersey and never lived more than an hour from my family. It really hit home over this last month.
Beyond all that I realize one year is going to fly by and we have already started preparing. We put our biggest luxury up for sale. Our 1993 Cutlass Supreme Convertible with only 64K miles on it. We both really love the car and use it only in the summer, but common sense says we cannot move with it and we have to cut back on non essential expenses.
I am thinking of getting one of these
since my car is already 7 years old and not worth importing.
Do you think a 39 year old gay man with no kids yet will look ridiculous in a Mazda 5
? Is it too minivan looking? I think it would be really practical, plus a great vehicle for when people come to visit us.
I wish I were more like Em. Nothing seems to phase him. He's very even tempered and the calmest person I have ever met. I guess my insanity is one of the things he loves about me. I hope so.
Enough of my complaining for today. I just needed to vent a little. Life goes on, keep looking forward.